i'm
sorry. sorry because
you have to go through what i've been through.
i know its difficult when such problems arise.
and i left
you when you needed me.
but it was because i was frustrated. frustrated that
you treated me just like anyone else.
and frustrated that you act like nothing happened when everything did.
but now it all seems that all
you ever wanted was for me to not feel your pain.
sweetheart, just give me a chance to make it all better.
steal my soul; 1:41 AM
hey, don't push your luck.
so what if
you got people to back
you up?
that doesn't mean i'm going to give in forever.
seriously, i can't be bothered with
you.
but its just that
you act like the whole world owes you smth. and its
fucking irritating.
steal my soul; 10:55 PM
sweetheart, those people don't matter.
only you do. have the same amount of faith in yourself you once had in them.
leave them behind, take a step forward,
and forget it. they're not as they seem.
steal my soul; 11:22 PM
bitches. is that the way you treat other people?
to think we thought we were good friends.
its as if we
seem quite close.
but now we know. you all never quite like us and i don't really care
anymore.
oh and it'll help if you guys would stop bitching behind our backs.
tell us in the face if you must, and get a life.
steal my soul; 12:06 AM
if you don't like us so much, tell us.
be it our presence or actions.
don't do things behind our backs,
and then expect us to understand how you're feeling. its ridiculous alright.
and hell, we lost to bmss again, during the finals.
steal my soul; 12:13 AM
i'm
freaking tired of all these life obstacles.
why is it that when our terms are getting better,
his and mine are getting worse?
he's someone important in my life.
and its really hurting when
he feels otherwise,
and tries to escape that fact.
steal my soul; 12:34 AM
its been quite a while since i felt
this happy.
we won northland, we
actually won them.
this was what we were desperate for, and we showed it. yeah, so it was an extremely tough fight, drawed during the match, [ 5-5 ]
and penalties. [ 1-1 ( out of 5 goals each) ]
but charlotte clinched the sudden death shot,
leading us to victory!
steal my soul; 10:16 PM
oh my god. stop it, seriously.
telling you what i feel does not mean
you're being unreasonable or being a bastard.
i
never said you were harassing me either.
and i
never blamed you for your assumptions.
i just get irritated, thats all.
oh please, lets just stop all these.
why can't we just return to what we were?
steal my soul; 11:34 PM
enough is enough. i'm sick of
this,
you assuming things. things that don't exist.
i was never avoiding
you, and it was
never because of him we're like this.
and it seems that what i've said doesnt quite enter your brain.
because i've said before that the chalet thing wasn't the reason. and i actually meant it.
so, why can't i be blogging and not signed into msn? if you haven't realise, blogging takes only a few minutes. while msn distracts me from doing homework for ages.
and what's the point of signing in if i don't intend to chat?
oh and please stop telling yourself you know me well enough, because its getting to your head.
steal my soul; 10:45 PM
heck it,
i hate it when
you make stupid
assumptions,
assuming i'm doing this, then that.
and
you actually think
you're right.
it just shows you don't know me well enough.
steal my soul; 5:52 PM
you've been bringing my hopes up time and again, making me think there's still hope,
but then
you suddenly drop a bomb on me.
it hurts so badly,
really.
but i'll forgive
you,
because
you mean a lot to me.
steal my soul; 12:48 PM
i
almost did it.
but i just couldn't pluck up enough courage to.
and yeah, its hurting so badly.
in fact, i think its getting worse
but now is not the time for the doctor.
steal my soul; 8:55 PM
i'm starting to doubt its bronchitis.
its more like -
Musculoskeletal Injury:
Strains/sprains to muscles/bones/tendons/ cartilage can cause chest pains. Chest pains associated with musculoskeletal injury are typically sharp and confined to a specific area of the chest. They may be brought on by movement of the chest and/or arms into certain positions, and often are relieved by changing position. These pains can be triggered by pushing on the part of the chest and often become worse when taking a deep breath. These pains usually last only seconds, but can persist for days.
steal my soul; 10:16 PM
sweetheart, i wish i could tell you good luck in your face.
steal my soul; 11:03 PM
I knew it.
you just needed someone.
someone to guide
you off this path.
you're tired, and so am I.
that person will bring both of us joy.
now, just accept your feelings.
and
let whats holding you back
go.
steal my soul; 11:43 PM
yeah, i'm happy i'm alive and well.
maybe there's a reason
you were there.
and that
you blessed me.
you allowed me to continue playing in the game. but still, we
lost to bukit merah. 4-0
however, the next match is
crucial...
in order to achieve our next target, we
need and
have to win the next one.
so lets put up a tough fight.
steal my soul; 9:55 PM
shit. i hate myself each time i think about it.
when i think about it, i feel freaking guilty.
and i'm just [hell] not suppose to do it.
but its just so tempting.
steal my soul; 1:15 AM
yeah, so what if we won swiss cottage 3-2 ?
i swear i wasn't happy when the game ended,
just totally relieved.
i scored a goal, and then stupidly let one in.
and whats with all the falling.
big mistake, girl.
sorry if i disappointed someone!
steal my soul; 6:09 PM
tomorrow's the day.
steal my soul; 12:52 AM
